Sorry If I am Deplorable I will never be perfect until I reach Heaven. Romans 3:23 says: For all have sinned and fall short of the Glory of God. Psalms 51 says: Create in me a pure heart o God and create a steadfast spirit with in me. Do not take your Holy Spirit from me. So we are saved by Gods Grace....every day or every time you ask for God to foregive you. That may be every day for me and some others. But there is the assurance that we can start over each day new if we choose to follow God's will to our best efforts and have place our faith in his Son, Jesus Christ. To be a Christian is not to be perfect but a lifestyle to pursue righteousness before God. May God bless you and keep you. May he keep you and your family safe.